Lunatic
As an overthinker with an overactive mind, I have discovered something. I have a pretty good life with mostly ups but when it's down, I tend to break all hell. I behave crazy; lunatic! After reflecting on my most significant days in 2022 and 2023, I found a weird pattern. 14th July, 12th August, 28th May, 29th September, 27th December – I have noticed that I overflew with emotions on each of these nights making questionable decisions that affected the story of my life, the people of my life.
I dove deep into the subject, did some online reading and found out I was being influenced by the moon! I know, it's not scientific, but I believe science hasn't gone a long way either. May be some day, it will be a noble winning discovery of science. May be, it's just, not scientific yet!
The moon, in terms of distance, is the closest celestial thing to us. I have read how it affects low and high tides in the ocean. The gravity of a moon is strong enough to move the water in the ocean. All of the oceans! So, it's not entirely wrong to assume that it can affect water in other places too. As far as I have read, one close to scientific explanation of my thought could be, the effect of moon's gravity on my body fluid which is basically 80% of me. The change in my body fluid might cause this emotional imbalance. Another article suggested that a full moon exaggerates every emotion, not just the negative ones, but it simply overpowers whatever mental state a person is in that day. If I am happy, it exaggerates my happiness; if I am sad, it exaggerates my sadness; if I am angry, it gives my anger more power. Basically, my emotions become superfueled and being unaware of it, I act on them.
I am not the only one claiming this absolute bullshit looking correlation between moon and my behaviour. Throughout human history, people have noticed how full moons affect behaviours for both humans and animals. The images of wolfs barking in front of a bright round moon didn't come from nowhere. A full moon enables crazy energy. That's why the term "lunatic" comes from Luna which means Moon.
There are so many interesting stories about it. So much mystery in one of the smallest cosmic things! I feel sad knowing that we won't be living long enough to know even the slightest of it. I wish I could know more. I wish I could have known about it earlier. I just wish I were mindful of it. My life would be different.
Here's more:
https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/full-moon-effects#energy-levels
https://www.bbc.com/future/article/20190731-is-the-moon-impacting-your-mood-and-wellbeing